home alone

So Jason left me alone this weekend to hike Havasupai with his family. Although his family had been planning it for a while he only decided to join them the day they left because his family begged him to. I would have loved to go but my job kept me from it- those dang responsibilities. I didn’t care that much. I wanted him to go and have some fun. And I was looking forward to spending a weekend alone at our townhouse. The only thing I neglected to think about was how freaked out I get once the sun goes down. I am on my guard at all times especially when I am by myself. I become very paranoid and I have to sleep with the bedroom door locked and sometimes I leave a light one. It is ridiculous I know but being in a family of 5 kids I'm used to always having someone there. It wasn’t actually as bad as I expected even though our neighbors woke me up at around 2:30 last night and kept me up til 4:00. That wasn't the first time either.. it happens about twice a week and not always on the weekend. They are a bunch of young guys whose lives involve playing video games all day and partying all night. At least as far as I can tell because I hardly ever see them except late at night, and at daytime we can hear them play Halo or another game. And last night I heard the "F" word maybe more than I have in my entire life. When Jason is here he calls the cops (well he has once.. usually other neighbors call) but I just laid there trying to block out the profanity and the laughter of ditzy girls. I had Gigi and Angie (my parents Bernese Mountain Dog) there with me and Angie just stared at them the whole time because you can see directly into their back porch from our window. I should have sent her on them but the most she would do is sit on their feet or lick them to death. Other than that I had a pretty good weekend and was able to face my fear of sleeping alone.